loose leaf

i drew a picture today on loose leaf
and let it go to the winds
to biodegrade like i will.

i packed up a life in two days
drove for two more
and changed my mind again.

and i know i shouldn't, but i will
beat myself black and blue over it
whether it was the correct thing
to do or not.

the picture was of my first erection,
which smiled back at me
as i looked on horrified.

so i'll pack up a life in a day
drive for two more
and leave that leaf to the winds.